It's a funny kind of day today. Not sunny enough for long enough to sit outside, but sunny enough to make you feel guilty for sitting indoors. It's warm when the sun's out, but chilly when it's not. I'm sat indoors, but I'm sat near the window if that counts for anything. I've been super… Continue reading Battling Sunday Scaries
Tag: mental health
Learning more about myself week by week
Oh my goodness, where to start? I did go to Reading to celebrate being 22. I turned up and my wonderful friends were waiting with cards and presents which made me ridiculously happy. Our night out started with Prosecco and ended with MacDonald's, need I say more? If you've never tried MacDonald's cheesy bites, be… Continue reading Learning more about myself week by week
Officially 22 years young and feeling inspired
"If you focus too far in front of you, you won't see the shiny thing out of the corner of your eye" - Tim Minchin I'll start with the job. It's going really well I think. It's hard work, but I'm enjoying it. This half term finishes tomorrow and I've told the school I'll go… Continue reading Officially 22 years young and feeling inspired
Feeling Positive: A move into special education and the approach to my 22nd birthday
This week's been exhausting. In fact, if I'd tried to write this post a couple of days ago I'm sure I just would have grumbled about being tired and feeling anxious and about the gloomy weather forecast for the weekend.
Finding joy in music again
I'm sat at my desk, the sun has got its hat on, Passenger's album 'All the Little Lights' is whizzing 'round the record player and I'm making my way through a massive mug of tea. Last week, I worked my first day in a school! I was ridiculously nervous. In fact, think I forgot to… Continue reading Finding joy in music again
Here Comes Chapter Two
Hello Stranger! I've been sat in the same spot, full of food and drink, for so long that my eyes are heavy and my bum hurts. I've still no idea where to begin. I thought I was finding my way in the world when I moved back to Cardiff for my second year, but I… Continue reading Here Comes Chapter Two
Trying and almost failing to overcome another anxious meltdown
During the last week of the Easter break, home became just wonderful enough to ensure that leaving it again would be as difficult as ever. I'm back in Cardiff now and until recently, I was feeling very sorry for myself. For the first time this year, I'd had a anxious meltdown and it felt like… Continue reading Trying and almost failing to overcome another anxious meltdown
Mixed emotions about heading home for Easter break
Sat on my bed in my half empty room, in my very empty flat, listening to the radio and waiting for my dad to arrive and take me home. This semester has flown by. One minute I was taking on January exams and celebrating being back in Cardiff after spending a wonderful Christmas at home… Continue reading Mixed emotions about heading home for Easter break
Overcoming Winter Blues at Uni: Sunshine, Cocktails and Flappy Birds
I am no expert, but I think I've been suffering from a serious case of the infamous winter blues. January and February, through no real fault of their own, have very bad reputations. January signifies the end of the holiday season and our return to every day life. It is as we struggle through January's… Continue reading Overcoming Winter Blues at Uni: Sunshine, Cocktails and Flappy Birds
The day before I leave home for university again
Having just spent five whole minutes sat in the middle of my bedroom floor wondering where on Earth I am supposed to begin, I am beginning to wonder whether I will ever get used to this whole 'packing my bedroom into boxes' thing. If I'm honest, when I sit in my room deciding what to… Continue reading The day before I leave home for university again
Balancing work and study: Part time sales assistant, full time student
I feel like my heart never stops beating too fast and the butterflies are back with a vengeance and that maybe this job wasn't such a good idea after all. The first week that I had to juggle lectures and work shifts I spent so focused on getting to where I needed to be that, once I'd got there, I forgot to enjoy myself. Then, when I got back home I felt like I'd done everything I needed to do: I found food, cooked it, ate it, collapsed in bed and normally very quickly, fell asleep. Perhaps I did need sleep and perhaps I had done all I needed to do, but it meant I never took a moment to actually decompress or relax.
Conquering a Busy Student Life – The early bird catches the worm
When I woke up Tuesday morning it was still dark. I felt like I should be jumping on an aeroplane and heading somewhere exciting, jumping behind the steering wheel of my car and driving across the country or just retreating under the duvet until the sun decided to put his hat on. In reality I'd… Continue reading Conquering a Busy Student Life – The early bird catches the worm
From Surviving to Thriving – Student life is taking a turn for the better
I should be the size of a hippo after eating everything I've eaten this week. I blame Papa Johns for tempting me with their 99p offer Tuesday night and Just Eat for making it so easy to order Chinese take away when you get home late on a Wednesday evening. My comfort food has become the occasional piece of healthy food I eat. The orange I ate after my Chinese takeaway for example, was so beautiful I think the vitamin C loving bits of me jumped for joy...
Powering through Fresher’s flu
Yesterday, I woke up with a horrendous cold and went on to have a horrendous day: I broke a glass when I was washing up, I found loads of important unread emails from my university, the internet kept crashing while I was trying to send replies, I nearly blew up the kitchen because I didn’t realise there was oil in the bottom of the oven when I turned it on and let it heat up to 200 degrees celsius...
Thank goodness for dongles, wellies and hairdryers
Sat on the sofa jumping every time I catch a glimpse of a van as it turns down our street in the hope it's either the delivery man with our TV or the man from virgin here to set up our WiFi. So far every van has turned in the opposite direction. Luckily, I've discovered the dongle: A magical device that connects your laptop to the internet through the mobile network...
Two days till Take Two
Part of me wants to ring Cardiff University and tell them I won’t be studying there this year after all because I’m sissying out and I’d like to stay home. I want to cry every time I consider saying another temporary goodbye to my friends and family. I feel like I'm sixteen again and all I should be doing is spending time with friends at the park, going to Smirnoff Ice house parties and worrying about GCSE results . When I imagine waking up in my new room in Cardiff Sunday morning I want to run up to bed, hide under the duvet and never come out...
The start of a new journey
I went and bought a beautiful new mirror for my university room today. I also bought a lovely new diary; it's cream and pink with flowers on the front, but not in a way that's too little girly (I don't think). I took another look at my enrolment email and made a note of key… Continue reading The start of a new journey
Blogging Goodbye to Butterflies 